unconditional

Epic failure on this one. I will love and accept you only if. ?..haha yeah.  You say you are  jealous and possessive,  things you say are not love and yet, they aren't a sin for you. Nature now there's a success.  Nature treats none differently or unfairly,  we all have the same chance. I guess the worst part was the waiting. I can no longer be still or silent,  my patience ran thin years ago, I cannot waste my breath any longer.  You had the chance to make it right, it was your choice not to. How many times did  you think Id crumble to my knees.  You already knew the answer. You already knew youd lead me here and leave me alone and bleeding .

prayers

Excuse me for being ungrateful but I put it all out there, gave you everything I had to give. You took it all and gave nothing back. You stole every dream I ever had and made them worthless. You tarnished every good thing but for what lesson? 49 years later Im just bitter. I realize I am small and insignificant in the large scheme of things but Im now ashamed that I led others to put their faith in you. Your words have made me blind. Your path has left me lost. Your redemption has left me seeking hell. You had your chance to end all this, there was supposed to be a purpose? Have you forgotten it as well? I can no longer sit here waiting on your empty words and promises. Its going to take actions now, act and I will respond. Show me and I will act otherwise you are nothing more than strength for a weak mind. I cant give you anything more cause there is nothing left. You turned your back and walked away leaving me cold, confused, and alone. You ignored my screams and cries for help. Turn around and show me, prove that it wasnt futile. Prove me wrong, show me something other than my blind faith or show nothing again.